The Bitch of Living

人似乎总是在登到山顶的最后途中感觉到疲倦，刚刚得到通知说自己可以过正常人生活的时候仿佛北京4月的天气已然变成了厦门的11月一样，转而又怀疑自己是不是听错了，抑或是幻觉。如果是一切都是真的，那我倒着实应该怀念下现在的生活了，每周都有别人上班自己休息的时候，有深夜不睡看太阳升起前北京天空上难得的数枚星星的机会，有顶着太阳睡觉的那种莫名其妙的舒畅。总之，人就是很贱，没了想有，有了嫌烦，没个知足的时候，老钱太让我佩服了，用了个文诹诹的词叫"围城"，想来想去找不到合适的词去代替，就只有佩服的份了。

不知道，朝九晚五后我还能不能这么有闲心的挂个耳机，听着小曲，用大灰狼的网络更新着我的blogger，这种感觉很奇怪，有种跟人偷情般的快感，又因为别人无法发现而兴奋不已，不知道盗帅的感觉是否如此。耳边刚好到了CA的Back to basis，这个被Ritcher恶语相加，痛斥到一无是处的女人，想想可笑，当年我也有个so-called pen pal说她便是这个so-called Christina A. 呢！娜娜啊，莫名其妙的被指跟您有染，不知道我是该高兴呢，还是该悲哀。不过，似乎我还是更喜欢麦姐，当然不能说不喜欢MC，不过这两个似乎都是所谓的Gay-item，据说华语歌坛的Gay-item之一是Jolin姐，还好还好，我对这个女人不感冒！

最近特喜欢听The Bitch of Living，歌词如下：

 

The Bitch of Living

God, I dreamed there was an angel

Who could hear me through the wall

As I cried out, like, in Latin "This is so not life at all

Help me out, out of this nightmare."

Then I heard her silver call

She said, "Just give it time, kid. I come to one and all."

She said, "Give me that hand, please, and the itch you can't control.

Let me teach you how to handle all the sadness in your soul.

Oh, we'll work that silver magic,

Then we'll aim it all the wall."

She said, "Love may make you blind, kid, but I wouldn't mind at all."

ALL

It's the bitch of living

OTTO

The bitch, just the bitch

ALL

With nothing but your hand

OTTO

Just the bitch, yeah

ALL

Just the bitch of living

As someone you can't stand

GEORG

See, each night it's, like, fantastic

Tossing, turning without rest

'Cause my days at the piano

With my teacher and her breasts

And the music's, like, the one thing

I can't even get at all

And those breasts!

I mean, God, please, just let those apples fall

ALL

It's the bitch of living

OTTO

The bitch!

ALL

With nothing going on, nothing going on

Just the bitch of living

Asking: What went wrong?

Do they think we want this?

Oh, who knows!

ERNST

See, there's showering in gym class

HANSCHEN

Bobby Maler, he's the best

Look so nasty in those khakis

ERNST

God, my whole life's like some test

OTTO

Then there's Marianna Wheelan

As if she'd return my call

HANSCHEN

It's like, just kiss some ass, man

Then you can screw 'em all

MELCHIOR

It's the bitch of living

And living in your head

It's the bitch of living

And sensing God is dead

ALL

It's the bitch of living

And trying to get ahead

It's the bitch of living

Just getting out of bed

It's the bitch of living

And getting what you get

It's the bitch of living

MELCHIOR

And knowing this is it

ALL

God, is this it?

This can't be it

Oh God, what a bitch!

 

Life really sucks… 每天都觉得生活在强奸着自己，所以只好喊着这种号子，享受着生活带来的快感。不知道这样的自我安慰是不是所谓的乐观！？